Stillness

Stillness.

Silence.

Boredom.

All new realities I’m contending with, now that I’m married. 

My life changed in an instant. Before I met you, I was living in constant chaos. I was battling demons both inner and outer, I was running from monsters, and chasing peace and freedom.

I thought I would never make it to the other side. I believed another way, an other side, didn’t even exist or wasn’t ever possible.

As I sit here, at 2:39pm on a Thursday afternoon, cat in my lap, I think about how grateful I am to be here, in this moment. Even though life isn’t perfect, even though I still have dreams that are unrealized, even though I sometimes wonder and wish for chaos in the midst of peace, I feel grateful to be in stillness.